No title! coz that limit things.

This very second I wish to do so much like talk on phone, paint as I am in my room lying alone, but in between I realize I should instead be thankful to God for giving me some time alone so that I can see myself, face my reality, understand my place/ my very reason of existence in this world.

What everybody is running behind? when each one of us know that one fine day we all have to leave all the earthy pleasures behind. May be this is the way to engage ourselves and meanwhile forget the hard reality.

Why creations are made to be destroyed? why everybody is destined to get over some day? Questions which remain a mystery for me and will always be so.

Alas! I am here thinking about myself. what lies intact for me in my future? Well, these are very far off things. Lets leave them for now and talk about my child self.

I so much want this day to start again, that weather to appear again, that rain to pour upon me, that wind to blow again which took me to a totally different world.

This craving and asking for things would never end until I am drawn into my dreams, which seems to be the only way to run off my thoughts/ or reality and relax for a while.

Expectations!

Its a key to one's failure, destruction or to one's success, fame.

Expecting from others is dangerous, it makes you like a parasite you think of people, depend on them. Your move, your thoughts might seem independent but are very much guided by those you expect from.

While expecting from oneself can make you do wonders, enrich your soul, reveal your potential, make you the master of mankind, pour upon you the fame never imagined. 
But humans are controlled by their emotions, its not the other way round, learning it the other way calls for lots of discipline, concentration, understanding that comes with self realization and control.

If it happens the other way, as in most of the cases it does, life becomes a challenge, a never ending fight. Every second seems to be a struggle; a struggle of choosing from the various options that come from the parasite called emotions.

Someone said,"life is not an easy task, but to make it easy is our task" applies to every account of human life.

Also a saying, " guide the wind, else it will misguide you".

First and the most important thing that humans need to learn is to cram the power of control. Master your thoughts, or it will master you.

What life has taught me with time is to control one's emotions, reactions, actions, guide them and use them with tactics and then you will see the whole world moving under your guidance.

Love people, but not to an extent that it destroys you, help people but in boundaries set by yourself, guide people to an extent that they don't misguide you. Learn from every second of your existence. Don't be the game, try to be the master of the game. 
Love life so hard, that it thinks twice before ditching you.

Satisfying oneself

Satisfying oneself is the toughest thing ever. People say its not easy to live to people's expectations , societies diplomacy, but what I feel that for once there mouth can be kept shut if one is satisfied or well settled or composed. I think people who realized this initially are the one who came up with all these concepts of meditation, self realization.

Was Buddha the one who realized this concept for the first time or it existed some more centuries back. whatever , it doesn't matter from where this very concept has rolled upon the important fact is the realization of this.

life ......living in foreign environment!!

Life changes every second, so does a human being. Can a human be trusted ? Is there a age when you can say that now he/she is mature and will never ever break the promises made by him? why humans can't learn loyalty from dogs? why you so very much wish to do something which you know deep inside your heart that its wrong indeed very wrong?

So many questions , but no answers because i also seem to be suffering from this syndrome. Life is to live and enjoy every moment, to cherish every second and meanwhile not to regret any of your deeds. wow!! why can't this feeling of guilt be deleted from the long list of emotions bestowed upon the human nature by God.